I'll Miss You!

Boy, I'm going to miss writing in my blog. We're moving tomorrow and won't have Internet access right away, at least. We also need a computer/laptop. Therefore, I don't know when my next blog will be, so I wanted to write as much as I could while I have some time.

You never konw what you'll enjoy until you try it. For many years, I ran from my magazine dream (see first blog posting), and I didn't think that I was worthy enough to do it or would actually be good enough to do it. I had issues with me. As I'm writing this blog, however, I'm thinking of how much having that magazine would have meant to me and changed my life. I already feel attached to writing this blog, and I didn't know it until I realized I may not see it, for a while. I know, I can always go to the library or use someone else's computer, but just the idea that I am leaving something that I love to do causes me to believe that I was right on track with the magazine. So, now, after all that I've been through regretting not doing the magazine and, now, finding something that I enjoy doing, where does this leave me? It leaves me with a little hope in my heart. It leaves me hoping that what I just felt--that little glimpse--is a peek into the life I've dreamed of living. I hope it brings me independence and focus, belief in myself and confidence, belief in my dreams and that I have the force and power behind me to follow them. I believe I have something to offer this world. We all do, but, you know what, I really have to be this person I know myself to be--this person I see.

This blog has changed the course, for me, and I am so grateful!! It has given me back a perspective I haven't had in a long time. I'm not sure where I'll end up, exactly, but I do know that I want to end up exactly where my body, mind, spirit and soul tell me I belong--in the company of greatness. I have a responsibility to God and to this world to do the work I've been assigned to do. I am just happy that I've accepted that--it's taken a long time, and I've resisted for many years. However, I realize now that nothing is more important than the work that is meant to be done by you. So, you can run from it, you can hide from it, you can disguise your fears with all types of substance abuse, but the truth is, at the end of the day, the responsibility is yours. Life is ours for the taking. We have to live it and live it to the fullest. I'm still learning as I go along this journey, but it's good to know that a teeny part of me is back. Whew...

Love,
Yvette