This was an email that I sent someone after I had a minor meltdown. I learned how to beat myself up, no matter what, and in this instance the addiction to it became quite relevant and quite clear... This email was sent after our conversation and after we hung up from me not getting the response I wanted:
What I learned is that I had little faith that God could bring me out and take me into a much greater, much better, more blessed place in my life. My faith was proven that I believed, truly, that this was all that God was capable of accomplishing for me, mainly due to my belief that this is all I deserve. So, my faith is tied up in my self-worth. Low self-worth, low faith. This is what I have discovered. I have to increase my self-worth, and I will because God has shown me how to do so. Just believe in more. It's okay to want more. It doesn't mean you're not grateful for what you have, but to strive for more says that you know you're capable of doing more, of being more and of saying more and so you will not allow your circumstances to define who you are when you know you're more.
Thanks for being a lesson as an unwilling participant in my need to justify my means. : )
I love you!
Yvette
It's one thing to say God has a plan, it's another thing to believe it.
