Calling the Shots

I just woke up, and as I began to wonder what I would write about, "calling the shots" came into my head. It came in the form of a question, in other words "Who's calling the shots?" I quickly wondered who's calling the shots in my life. And I know the answer before I have to ponder and question and wonder and think on it--everyone else but me. Why am I allowing everyone else to call the shots in my life? I have become externally focused on making myself right from the outside in, and that's just not right--that had never been my philosophy. I have to call the shots in my life. I think I know best! : )

Through writing, I find power. I love writing. It gives me the safe haven to feel what I feel and to express it abstractly, such as through poetry, or directly, such as a through blog. I never thought I would write a blog, but it had been suggested to me on occasions when I was, quietly, looking for something to do, without asking anyone. I believe I was being guided to share my thoughts with someone, even with myself. I hope I get to know myself better and to accomplish something while writing this blog. What? I don't know. I just want to be a better person--a better person to others and to me. My hopes and dreams are not conquered by fear. I will not succumb to that. My life is not over, and I can see that a little just by writing to you. I thank God for an opportunity, for an outlet that He feels best serves my purpose, right now--whatever the purpose, it's something. I feel good about that. I'm glad to know that He's still in it with me. For that, I am so completely grateful.

Thanks for listening.
Yvette : )