Sometimes, I feel like I'm going the wrong way. I do. I feel like I am misunderstood and that people will have their own judgments about how I feel. I mean, it's as if I can't feel what I feel. This sounds angry, I'm sure--and part of it is. I am not angry with the other person. I am angry with me. Why? Because I know what I feel and, sometimes, I'm afraid of it.
What I am learning--from being afraid--is that all is not always what it seems. My thoughts sometimes have a barbaric attack on my brain, and they like to consume so much of who I am that I become engrossed in their entangled weaves of web and limited thinking. Okay, that's a lot, but it's true.
I love being me. I mean, it's the best thing to me, and I'm sure being you is the best thing to you. There's no feeling like it, and I'm glad that I have God on my side to whom I can confide and pray and ask for the guidance that no other person can give me, including me. So, why the sudden change in attitude? It is because I took a short break from writing this and had a conversation with God--one that I was able to find some peace and some willingness to learn in the experience in which I am. Tomorrow is not here, and I'm thankful for that because of what I did for myself today--just by talking to God was enough to make the sun rise inside again. I feel good about having the sun rise inside again because I have lived in sadness for so many years. This blog helps, and, for it, I am so grateful. : )
Love,
Yvette
Praise the Lord! It's ok to feel how you feel but please be patient with yourself and accepting of your specific individual life and experience. The other day I took this yoga class and the instructor, as we were in a position, said "Be patient with yourself". That was the biggest tresure got out that class; was to be patient with myself. No i can't throw my calfs on my shoulders and while standing on my hands, like some people can, but maybe, if I want to, I'll get there. Where I am and what I I am capable of at that moment is enough. Who you are and what you can bring at that moment is always enough. (maybe I rambled a bit but just want to share n show some love ;-)
ReplyDeleteThat is a great Yoga instructor. You need to stick with him/her. Some Yoga instructors are impatient with inflexibility!
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